by Charity
Rachel says and does terrible things to shut the system down. To shut me down because she knows that I don't believe in fighting back. I can't imagine any of us getting through to her, and I just want to give up anyway.
I would rather be abused than fight back. I know this sounds terrible, but I don't care any more. It's how I feel, and I want my feelings to be accepted. My feelings are the foundation of who I am and how I live my life. I need to feel validated as a person, and that begins with having my feelings validated. My feelings don't have to make sense, and they don't have to be healthy or helpful. But they're mine, and I want them to be okay no matter what, because they are me and I am them.
And I want outside people and inside people to accept me where I am right now. I'm tired of trying to live up to other people's expectations. I've done that our whole life. I just want it to be okay to be who I am and where I am, without any pressure to change if I'm not ready.
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