Discouraged

by Charity

Sunday was more of the same as Saturday.  Estate paperwork, sorting through belongings, mental and emotional exhaustion for all three of us (us and our two brothers).  It's hard not to feel depressed and discouraged.  Our existing internal and personal issues, plus all of this added on....It's hard to handle everything.  Getting up and commuting to work, pretending that we care about our job when we're really just trying to hold on until retirement.

I feel isolated, others inside feel isolated.  It's a miserable catch-22.  We need the support of other people, yet we feel unable to reach out because we've been hurt by so many people so many times.  I want to work through all of this.  But it seems impossible.  Especially when I don't have any hope.